Terrified

Terrified,
these are the reasons:
too many decisions to choose from
nothing fits me quite right, y'know?
what if it isn't really all that great?
but everything they do is so... fake
where is the money in all of this?
where is the meaning in all of this?
will everyone be happy with what i choose?
am i just giving up and lowering my standards?
what if i fail?

This is the Reason:
What if I succeed?
Does the story really start there?
Or is it just the beginning of...
Terrified.